-Tuesday, May 6, 2008-12:06 AM Y
Last week whole week i was sick. I felt zero sense of achievement. like doing 'nothing' (except usual housework, errrands etc). Today had dinner outside with mum and twin. mentioned the word job. then in a very nice way, she disallowed. I felt very stuck in between.. because i cant imagine staying at home for 4 months. BUt then, *slaps to myself*, i cant simply leave all the work to my sis and mum. mum has to cook for dad everyday almost 3 meals, (though ah ma will also help), and the rest is up to us. haix.. chemo haven start and what s wrong with me? here i m complaining bored? so it means staying at home with parents is bored? gonna whack myself.
I realised how important is health. Cos last week really sucked. when i was ill. I felt so 'jelly' while doing housework. ~wee. glad that this is over. and mei mei was also sick last week but she s now on her road to recovery. Bad news is this.. twin is getting sick now. Yupp, actually staying at home to me isnt that bored. i can do many things. reading, playing piano. so far only these 2 things give me the minimal sense of 'achivement' that i yearn for.
All in all, I SHALL NOT COMPLAIN (of boredness). dad is above everything else k.. what ever i do. i can spend all my time watching tv with u, sharing fruits, 'smuggle' food for u, drain etc..
But good news is that, mum let me do cip! ~lalala. im emo today. because this is the first day of my actual recovery. buahaha
Looking forward to tmr. i m attending mass! ya i love to attend mass. can ask god to psyche me to be more obedient. oh ya. tmr 's special cos father andrew kooi ( i know him thru facebk) is having his thanksgiving mass at st vincent de paul church for his priesthood ordination which took place on 13apr. since i didnt attend his ordination due to exams, i 'll go tmr. well if i can get to c him even better. then twin and i also planned to go shopping before that...