-Wednesday, August 18, 2010-11:34 PM Y
It s the 3rd day of school and readings are piled up! Nonetheless, im taking a very slack attitude now.. cos as weeks goes by, the study life gets tougher.. well this is smu life i guess?...
Sch's aside, family is rather in a mess cos dad's health is deteriorating...first time vomiting today. Now since he does not want to continue chemo, he's just relying on local injections which is quite short term, perhaps just to control the pain. Whatever it is, i do believe he s strong enough to bite things through.
Missing hubby!:)
-Tuesday, August 17, 2010-12:57 AM Y
It s 16810 today. After HSBC talk at night i met up with hubb to give him my second present - i did the scrap page using our free couple picture taken at ion by IDA. heh. did the final step- lamination in sch just before the talk.
Had a nice 2 -day celebration! Happy 2nd Anniversary bb. this is the last time im sayin for the day haha.
Back at home, dad s condition is not good. suspected, or rather it s a not yet reveal truth, that dad's tumor in the head is growing such that the headache is getting worst..pain till tears came. =( Jiayou k, no matter what we wont give up!
-Monday, August 16, 2010-12:02 AM Y
After writing on your fb wall, sending u sms and on our xxx, i wish u here again:
Happy 2nd yr Anniversary Hubby.
I love u forever!!!
-Sunday, August 15, 2010-9:16 PM Y
Although it s been a few times since i see he teared, it s the first time i hear him cried, while he was talking about his condition to his church friend. Told the friend very detailed about the spreading of cancer cells etc... emo-ed. I really loss for words to say to him.. just said, daddy, wo men yong yuan zhi chi ni.:) Im going to talk to him soon.:))
--12:06 AM Y
It s the 2nd anniversary celebration today at orchard!!
I received my present - a handmade white grand piano toy. omg it s super beautiful with all the messages written on it. I love it very much.:) hopefully next week make a trip to daiso to get a box so that i can store the fragile piano. Soon i got a dress as we shopped at Far east plaza. heh:))
My present to him was a finger mouse. That s not a normal mouse ok.. it s a new gadget. a mouse operated using our finger. But anyway i dont know how to use it at all so it s for him to try.
Dinner was a treat by me @ Island cafe Tangs. wow.. this is probably the first time i treat baby to something more expensive than kopitiam. He s always the one paying for my everything.:) it s like supporting me financially apart from physically and emotionally.:p
Hubby, Happy 14810, our saturday celebration day! One Six Eight Ten is coming and u ll receive my handmade present..hehehe..
iloveu.
-Tuesday, August 10, 2010-11:50 PM Y
Mum asked me to sleep with dad tonight. Deep inside me i really detest, cos the weather is too hot for me to sleep without air con and mild fan which is like just a very small wind as dad cant take huge wind. Feel bad..but being a light sleeper.. really light i mean.. i know i cant sleep.. i rather wake up in the middle of the night to give him morphine and painkillers. will be waking up at 2 plus later.
After working at IE singapore i had a few weeks of break which gave me very good rest.. staying at home with my parents and helping out etc. I kinda felt excited for school to start. Perhaps dad's sudden worsening condition is 'eroding' some of my enthusiasm for school to start. Cos the responsibity will fall on mum when all of us are not at home, and she definitely cant take it.
Baby: u r my pillar.:)
-Sunday, August 8, 2010-9:52 PM Y
Dad's condition is not very optimistic now..but we re always continuously fighting the war with him. We will never give up. I believe the more pain and suffering he is going through here, he will reap returns in heaven next time... the return of his Chest pains attacks, new eye/eyelid problems, headache, legs even number and weak, diarrohea or constipation everyday..all this are taking huge toil on him. Press on daddy!! We r always behind u!
Had a tiff with hubby today but all is resolved. Actually don know why im upset today.. maybe his comment about my top..or whatever.. but i just know it s so difficult to fight a cold war with him. Attempt no 1 and i failed..ZZZzzz..love him too much. I know he will never ever let me go.:)
Counting down to sch in 1 week s time. 16 aug = day 1 of school = 2nd anniversary.
-Thursday, August 5, 2010-6:13 PM Y
Dad is discharged yesterday after 7 days. And the best part is that doctors still do not know the cause of his headache cos his MRI brain scan shows no sigh of stroke. So for the past 7 days, he's just given 2 panadols and morphine which in the first place we have all these at home..
Could it be side effects from chemo that is unexplainable? hmm..
Things doesnt look good for now, but the most important part is for him to accept everything.
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At baby 's house using his network cos our mio broke down again which means we have no phone and internet. Had called up the technician this afternoon and he said the earliest slot is this sun. urgg. so i didnt facebook nor email nor blog for almost 5 days. But anyway it isnt any big inconvenience cos i spent all my afternoons and nights in the hospital.
Baby's working so hard now.. to bring back the bacon...:)