-Wednesday, December 15, 2010-1:25 AM Y
After the turning point since 4 nov, dad finally ended his pain on 13 Dec, 1030am peacefully at home. It was unexpected on that day, but expected as a whole. The moment his bed sore turned raw on sat, i knew i wanna let him go..
These 2 nights of wake at St Joseph Dying Aid Association at Nativity Church just proved that Dad is very blessed with the love from all his relatives, and his classmates, church friends etc.
I am gonna miss him very much, definitely, because he brought us up and we had accompanied him till the very very end. All the way, his pain was shared, and he was never alone suffering. I have no regrets because i had played a part in the caregiving journey. The only sad things will be some negligence i had while taking care of him..but i m sure dad will forgive me for everything.
No more night duty, no more backaches..
No need to feed him milk and medicine, change shirt, change diaper, massage, carry him from bed to wheelchair and vice versa,clean him, remove phlegm from throat, clean the feeding tube etc..I'll be super slack.. slacking like anything.
The past 6 weeks my life only revolve around taking care of dad..it s so not used to shifting my focus back to other usual stuff. I'll be back to school come january. Life goes back to normal.I'll study hard and get my degree! CHIONG AHHH!!!
Many things at home brings back memories and all these will be stored in our hearts for life. :)
Final day tomorrow..then i wont cry anymore. enough already:)
Daddy i love u!!:))